I’ve got a confession…I’m not alright.
Just the thought of not sharing Christmas with my family has me alternating between deep sadness and uncontrollable anger.
I’m pissed off, disappointed, confused, angry, determined, hopeless, and completely depressed all at the same time. And that’s just before lunch.
The thought of not sharing time with my family, my new baby grandson, my aging parents, my brother-in-law just home from Iraq makes me want to scream. Just the thought that my 95 year old Grandmother will spend Christmas locked in her apartment makes me sick.
Intellectually I know that Christmas isn’t cancelled. That there’s other ways to connect and that we are keeping everyone safe. I get it.
It’s my heart that just won’t listen. She’s not interested in hearing that it’s about the connection, and being creative. She doesn’t care that we can use zoom to play games. She’s just really sad.
So all this to say, if you’re like me, and are feeling like Christmas this year is going to be really hard you’re not alone. I’m right there with ya. And if you need a ear, just someone to talk to, someone to commiserate with, I’m your gal. Just reach out. Frankly, I could use someone to vent with.
It’s ok not to be ok this Christmas.🎄